Looking for new Projects 2013

So now I am on the end project countdown. After complaining several times I didn't like here. Now I don't want to leave. I don't know why exactly. Probably because the violence that still exist in Mexico. I am on the most dangerous state in the US. But still it is not compared with the violence that we have in Mexico.

I feel safer here that in Monterrey. I see my country as a place where bandits, drug dealer and corrupted politician do as they please without punishment. It sad that all the news that I read about my country are always negative.Seems that Mexico international image is about a country with deep corruption problems and where war with drug dealer is never going to end.

Now that my project is going to finish in 4 months. I need to start looking for my new project. Otherwise I might have to go back to Monterrey office. So far I have look inside the company open positions. I sent a few emails and some manager replied. As usual, some manager want me to roll off as soon as possible to join their project. That's not an option. My current project doesn't want to let me go that easy.

I have a trip planned to Pittsburgh. To visit my brother's wife family. They might be a good professional network point of contact.

Let's see what happen. Where my next place to live might be. Worst case I will have to go back to Monterrey. Hopefully drug dealers don't stop me and steal my car on the road back there. Since Mexico is a place where they do as they please.

And there things ended bad....again

So after I did the stupid thing of buying a bracelet to this girl and exchanging useless sms and whatsapp messages things went bad again.

I just confirmed that all things that block her to come and see me were actually excuses from her. She told me that her host mom didn't need her anymore for valentine days and she wanted me to go to Boston and see her. Of course she told me that just as friends. I got tired of this bullshit. I sent her an email asking what exactly are her feelings for me. I told her how I felt for her. Her answers she doesn't feel anything for me. She wants to be just friends and nothing more ever.

I am thinking why am I wasting time with a person like this. Even though she claims not be a player she is. The way that I think is that if girl is truly in love with someone or at least they have interest they make things easy for him. Everything with her is always really difficult. On December 2010 she wasn't ready to date me or to have a relationship with me and then she went back to his ex boyfriend.

Now again she is saying the same. Probably waiting to see if she can go back with him again. She is on a on and off relationship with him. Doesn't seem to be over.

I know most successful relationship started as friendship. What she is asking from me. But with a girl with her habit of going back to ex's I don't think I can trust that. I also believe romantic interest doesn't come from friendship. On my experience girls keep friends on the friend zone forever. They always meet guys outside this circle and in a few days they have a relationship.

So this is it. Now that we exchange emails saying good luck to each other. It is finally over. We are probably never going to see each other again in person. Probably the best. I don't want to invest more money and time with someone that is afraid on dating me. That she cannot even say she likes me.

I don't know why I have this luck to bring this type of girls into my life. I didn't ask for it and certainly I wasn't looking for this. I don't know what was my mistake. Perhaps I should stay away for that family.

I hope I dont have any more emotional problems and I can forget everything about her. It was hard to do it with my real ex. I guess I need to work on not remembering old flirts.

I hope someday I can truly meet a girl. I really would like to fall in love with the correct girl.

Boyfriend lurking in the background

So I finally decided to talk to Nicole about this. After watching her instagram pictures. I text her since we are   "just friends" and nothing more. I asked her how long has she being single. Her answer was just 4 months. That confirms a lot of things. So after we dated on December 2010 she got back with her ex. I remember that on facebook she posted "engaged". Event dates match.

Of course she got mad that I was questioning her about the pictures. She only answer to her family. She celebrated 5 years anniversary with him. She explained that not as a couple but as the time they know each other. Kind of weird. The picture that she published seems a really romantic one. I dont know if girls post friendship anniversary pictures on the internet. I am thinking they only do that for lovers.

Something that really bothers me is that they are "best friends". She swore they are now only friends. But they seems to see each other quite frequently. I know that's a huge red flag.

Man are possessive and they don't like too share. I highly doubt that any man would let his current girlfriend hang out with an ex. How stupid can she be? I am thinking her age is the reason. But I know 21 year old girls that are smarter. So maybe is not the age. Maybe she is actually stupid.

I cant believe Armando let her daughter date someone older for that long. This guy cheated on her, made her fail her school semester and sent her to a psychologist. Still she forgave him and went back to a relationship. I think they are meant to be forever together. No matter what other man do, they will always go back together.

I think now I am to start the process to forget about her. I should expect her to send me back my gift. I created a rule. No gifts for girls until they become officially my girlfriend.

Hope this time I keep my rule. The weird part is that she got mad. I am suppose to be mad not her. On a certain way I feel relief. She is not a long term material for a relationship. She just proof that she is not worth.

Someone came back

I got an email from Nicole several weeks ago. She wanted to know about me. She gave me her cellphone. I called her and we had a friendly talk. After that day we have being texting each other almost daily.

We are making plans. She can visit me in Feb 2013 and I will visit her on March. I have being doing some background checking. Apparently she was engaged on May 2011. A few months after we were dating (Dec 2010). Also she posted on facebook that this year she ended a relationship. It kind of bothers me. I was going trough her facebook and got her instagram account. I found that she posted several pictures in the last 20 weeks. In some pictures she is with a guy. I am thinking that's her ex boyfriend.

One picture that truly bothers me is where they are both together in Chicago. Probably they spent the night together. I can believe some is that stupid to post pictures and saw stupid things that "love forever". I never did that with my ex.

Most of our texting involve flirting. We finally touch the age difference. She seems fine with me being that much older than her. I, as a man, dont care. In fact I feel better. Man always love younger women. I order a gift for her through Amazon. I dont know if it was a good idea.

I do like her but I just feel that she has to much baggage with her. I dont feel comfortable with her past. Something that I have learned is women never forget the boyfriend that they had between 18 and 21. Probably his memory will be there forever.

I am afraid to invest in her and she suddenly goes back with her ex. If I know the story correctly. He cheated on her. Some how she forgave him. She continued the relationship with him after dating me.

My personal opinion is once I date a girl. She should never date another man at all. Long distance relationships are always a waste of time. She has emotional baggage. Boyfriend lurking in the background. I am thinking maybe I am a rebound again.

Thanksgiving 2012

I got invited to spent Thanksgiving in Chicago. My cousin Irma invited to visit them. I was excited. I made all the arrangements at work to leave Wednesday early. I bought the Amtrak tickets online. I prepared everything. I have a lot of experience traveling so I knew what I needed. I made the laundry and got books to read on the way. I recharge my ipod battery and checked the weather at my destination.

My cousin picked me up at the Chicago Union Station. I met her husband. I arrived at midnight so we went straight to a bar in the mexican district. I spent the night at her place. Next day I met my cousin Joe and his wife Eligia. On the same house that he just bought were living my aunt Irma and his other son Raul. I was really nice to talk to them. They were asking me a lot about my brothers. They told me several stories about them when they were living in Tampico. Schools that I didnt know they existed.

Chicago is a really interesting city. Thats where they filmed the Batman movies. I could recognize the scenes from the movies. Irma took me to Millenium Park. I really like the mirror bean attraction. We also saw part of the thanksgiving parade. We arrived late so we saw part of the ending.

Thanksgiving dinner was good. Irma's husband prepared the turkey. He brought a special "thing" to cook it outside. It was a lot of food. They all say thanks to several things before eating. That was the special ceremony for them. I ate a lot of food. Everything was really good.

Dulce wanted to go for black friday but nobody else wanted. I wanted to go since it could be my first time. But she was drinking and went to sleep early around 7pm. I went to bed around 11am. She tried to call Rosario and me to go to black friday around 2am but I was sleeping already. No way I will change my pijama and go out in the middle of the morning with that weather.

Chicago weather is similiar on temperature to Detroit. The only big difference is the wind. It is windy so the temperature feels worst.

Uncle Joe took me to best buy. He wanted a new laptop but it was so full and with big lines. I hate crowded places. I prefer to pay more and to avoid people. Dulce took me to Navy Pier. I liked there. It was beautiful. I just love cities that have water shores or attractions. Based on my zodiac horoscope I am a water sign. Probably that is the reason I love water.

I called aunt Perla to make arrangement to visit her. Everybody was surprise. Apparently my aunts dont get along that well. They avoid each other or at least that's what they think. We went to visit Aunt Perla. I met my cousins from that side. It is funny how I have blond/white relatives. As a mexican everybody expects me to have brown relatives. I was happy to have blond relatives. I was thinking that maybe I was born on the wrong side of the family. My life would be much better if I was blond with blue eyes.

Chicago was a good experience. I love to travel and to learn about my roots. I have so much family that I still have to meet again. A few cousins are in New York. I should travel again there and see if I can meet them.

I am glad that technology like Facebook exist so I can keep in touch with them. It is much easier to learn what are they up to and to share pictures with them.

I am thinking that maybe I should organize and put more pictures. I was hesitating to upload pictures regarding the stupid facebook privacy policies. But I learned about the filters and sharing only with family. I will select the best recent pictures to upload.

I hope I can visit my relatives more often. Maybe work from home and go to Chicago for a full week.

Living in Michigan USA

So finally Accenture gave me the opportunity to come on a project on the USA. I was given the opportunity to work and live in Southfield Michigan. The difference between Accenture and Focusframe will be the payroll. Now I will be living with american payroll and benefits.

My journey began with a 4 day road trip. Traveling from Monterrey, Mexico to Southfield Michigan took me 4 days. My mother wanted to come with me. It was a good trip. No problem at all. The first day here was difficult. I couldnt find a good apartment. I was so worry about that. Next day God heard me and I found a good studio at a really good price. The manager at the building made everything easy and in the first 30 min I had my first US apartment. My first apartment.

I had to register for the utility bills. I had to go to each company and put everything on my name. I felt like a real american.

I didnt like my first week of work. The senior manager was on vacation and nobody was expecting me. The company didnt know what to do with me. So I was sitting alone doing nothing.

I met Ryan, the canadian lead. He was working on my previous project but I never met him. It looks like I was following him to this project. He was really cool and we hang out a lot. He had to leave the company and a new lead will replace him. I still keep in touch with him through facebook and cellphone sms.

My new lead is also technical but kind of old. It is difficult to deal with old people. My senior manager left the project and a manager replaced her. So far it was a good change.

I do like the american living. I just hope I could have a nice girlfriend to hang out with. I was lucky to meet Armando, my neighbor, in the parking lot. He was wearing a mexican jersey and that's how I knew he is mexican. Since that day we were hanging out. I met his roommate, Eli. He is cool too. He invited me to his mom's wedding. I went to his hometown and I met his whole family.

Armando and Eli now leave somewhere else. I was able to convince them to join my gym so I see them almost daily there. I also see them on the weekends.

I found a kickboxing gym. Although is not the same as the Box Evolution in Monterrey is still good. At least I can do cardio exercise and keep not gaining weight. I am still around the 69-70 kg weight.

Disney Client

So I am finally out of the Bank. I am really happy to leave the bank. I didn't like the restrictions that I used to have. The only thing missing is the people and the time over that I was charging.

My current project feels like a pilot. It is not mature yet. There are a lot of good things that I like from my current project. I have a laptop so I can apply working from home. I did it on December to stay longer with my family. Accenture just gave me 1 week vacation and I stayed another one working. I may apply more to visit more often my family.

I have open network so I can check my personal emails while I am at work. Also I can stay at my apartment if there is bad weather. I can bring my ipod to the office and listen music while I am working.

It is nice to have all this benefits. Although I dont really like the project. I might have an opportunity to leave the company with a former executive that is recruiting mexican and canadians.

I will see how that turns out.

Soccer at Office

This year I was invited to a Soccer Team. Eleven players all from the Office. I did liked the uniform. So far we have being losing. I like the location where we are playing.

I have being invited to other office team to play soccer. It is nice that from one team I can play on others. Sports is a really good way to make networking with office colleagues.

Semana Santa 2011

So I took a week off from Work to go on Vacation. I decided to go to Guadalajara & Puerto Vallarta with coworkers.

It was really amazing vacations. On Guadalajara we went to almost all interesting places. Victor has a brother there (Arturo) and he took us to Chapala Lake and Tequila. Tequila is the city where the Tequila drink was born. It was amazing that they have all the Tequila companies there. Lake Chapala is really big. It seems like an ocean since you cannot see the other end.

Every single day I saw beautiful ladies in Guadalajara. It was amazing that they have beautiful girls every where from all social status. I really like the mall Plaza Andares. It is the fanciest mall in Guadalajara. It seems like an American Mall, I really liked it.

Puerto Vallarta was awesome too. I really like that the nightclubs were all among the malecon. So at nights all the party is in the same block. I didnt like the tours that they offer in Puerto Vallarta. They are kind of expensive and are not worth it.

The only thing that I didnt like from the vacation was the road from Guadalajara to Puerto Vallarta. It has a lot of curves and you can get sick. It is better not to eat before traveling.

I really want to visit Guadalajara again. Maybe to live there for a few years. They have BestBuy there.

April 2011 News

the first news is about Renee who got married. After meeting a guy for a few months in Texas they got married on February. Now they are living in Dallas, Texas. I still can believe how some couple can marry in such a short time. I guess this is the reason United States has the highest divorce rate in the world.

At work is almost the same. I started to get along with several girls but I dont really want to get involve with girls at work. I think it is such a bad idea.

I went to BioParque Estrella this past weekend. It was amazing. I had a good time. I have the chance to go to San Antonio Texas this weekend. I am not sure if I should go. I really want to see this city but the condition is that I take my car. I dont really want to risk my car. I dont want druglords to steal my car. I dont understand why the other people that want to go have a higher role than me and they dont have a car.

I believe they want to take advantages from me. Also I am traveling next week to Guadalajara and probably I should save money for that travel.

Lets see what happen.