Looking for new Projects 2013

So now I am on the end project countdown. After complaining several times I didn't like here. Now I don't want to leave. I don't know why exactly. Probably because the violence that still exist in Mexico. I am on the most dangerous state in the US. But still it is not compared with the violence that we have in Mexico.

I feel safer here that in Monterrey. I see my country as a place where bandits, drug dealer and corrupted politician do as they please without punishment. It sad that all the news that I read about my country are always negative.Seems that Mexico international image is about a country with deep corruption problems and where war with drug dealer is never going to end.

Now that my project is going to finish in 4 months. I need to start looking for my new project. Otherwise I might have to go back to Monterrey office. So far I have look inside the company open positions. I sent a few emails and some manager replied. As usual, some manager want me to roll off as soon as possible to join their project. That's not an option. My current project doesn't want to let me go that easy.

I have a trip planned to Pittsburgh. To visit my brother's wife family. They might be a good professional network point of contact.

Let's see what happen. Where my next place to live might be. Worst case I will have to go back to Monterrey. Hopefully drug dealers don't stop me and steal my car on the road back there. Since Mexico is a place where they do as they please.

And there things ended bad....again

So after I did the stupid thing of buying a bracelet to this girl and exchanging useless sms and whatsapp messages things went bad again.

I just confirmed that all things that block her to come and see me were actually excuses from her. She told me that her host mom didn't need her anymore for valentine days and she wanted me to go to Boston and see her. Of course she told me that just as friends. I got tired of this bullshit. I sent her an email asking what exactly are her feelings for me. I told her how I felt for her. Her answers she doesn't feel anything for me. She wants to be just friends and nothing more ever.

I am thinking why am I wasting time with a person like this. Even though she claims not be a player she is. The way that I think is that if girl is truly in love with someone or at least they have interest they make things easy for him. Everything with her is always really difficult. On December 2010 she wasn't ready to date me or to have a relationship with me and then she went back to his ex boyfriend.

Now again she is saying the same. Probably waiting to see if she can go back with him again. She is on a on and off relationship with him. Doesn't seem to be over.

I know most successful relationship started as friendship. What she is asking from me. But with a girl with her habit of going back to ex's I don't think I can trust that. I also believe romantic interest doesn't come from friendship. On my experience girls keep friends on the friend zone forever. They always meet guys outside this circle and in a few days they have a relationship.

So this is it. Now that we exchange emails saying good luck to each other. It is finally over. We are probably never going to see each other again in person. Probably the best. I don't want to invest more money and time with someone that is afraid on dating me. That she cannot even say she likes me.

I don't know why I have this luck to bring this type of girls into my life. I didn't ask for it and certainly I wasn't looking for this. I don't know what was my mistake. Perhaps I should stay away for that family.

I hope I dont have any more emotional problems and I can forget everything about her. It was hard to do it with my real ex. I guess I need to work on not remembering old flirts.

I hope someday I can truly meet a girl. I really would like to fall in love with the correct girl.